my dilemma
i still have feelings for him.. i just never had the guts to inform him.. i was constantly running away - literally and emotionally.. the most ironic thing is that i've usually been straight forward when it comes to these things..i never held back.. but this particular situation was different.. maybe it's because, at that point, i was slowly stripping down the barrier and allowing myself to actually fall for someone for a long time since nathan.. or maybe i never told him because i needed an assurance, a confirmation if the feelings are mutual.. and now, i sit here tired of waiting, remorseful for holdin on to the impossible.. from what i've read & from my own intuition, my dearest has fallen for another girl.. which is perfectly fine, i guess.. but i wanted him so badly.. life is not static, it's dynamic.. if he could move on, i definitely can.. [drich, u are so right about him.. i should have moved on]
my solution
take his name off my cell, blog, and AIM.. i know it's not the best, i must admit.. but i have to do it for my sake.. it's only temporary.. in doing so, i know i am optimizing the risk of losing a friend, but i can't associate with him right now.. at least not yet..
I'm going to stop procrastinating ... once I get around to it.
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my dilemma
i still have feelings for him.. i just never had the guts to inform him.. i was constantly running away - literally and emotionally.. the most ironic thing is that i've usually been straight forward when it comes to these things..i never held back.. but this particular situation was different.. maybe it's because, at that point, i was slowly stripping down the barrier and allowing myself to actually fall for someone for a long time since nathan.. or maybe i never told him because i needed an assurance, a confirmation if the feelings are mutual.. and now, i sit here tired of waiting, remorseful for holdin on to the impossible.. from what i've read & from my own intuition, my dearest has fallen for another girl.. which is perfectly fine, i guess.. but i wanted him so badly.. life is not static, it's dynamic.. if he could move on, i definitely can.. [drich, u are so right about him.. i should have moved on]
my solution
take his name off my cell, blog, and AIM.. i know it's not the best, i must admit.. but i have to do it for my sake.. it's only temporary.. in doing so, i know i am optimizing the risk of losing a friend, but i can't associate with him right now.. at least not yet..